Strange rational thoughts, Or is it just me?

It’s natural for us to suffer and die. There is an extensive system of apologetics, to explain how a good god can remain good despite choosing not to intervene when we suffer. But all those apologetics, brake down and become useless when we talk about babies, the sweetest smallest youngest and most innocent of us. So many babies and young children have suffered horrendously at the hands of nature and failed to endure. Their suffering did not make them stronger; they cannot be held accountable for a test they cannot yet comprehend and they did NOTHING wrong. Such suffering only makes sense when we realize that nature is indifferent, and either there is no God or there is at least no personal interested good God. When we realize that, when we realize we are on our own, then we’ll know that is entirely up to us to take care on each other. But can we continue to call ourselves good if we stand idly by as if we too, do not exist?